Last night I dreamed that my friend's husband was a philanderer. I was over at their house and my friend was asleep because she was pregnant and tired. I soon discovered that her husband was also expecting a child with the woman he was cheating on his wife with. This woman was also there and starting to get crabby - might have had something to do with being pregnant and in the house of her 'boyfriend's' wife. I remember thinking I have to tell my friend about this! But isn't there some conventional wisdom about how you'll never be appreciated as a friend for exposing that sort of thing and that it's better to let her figure it out because it's just a matter of time before she does anyway? Anyway I woke up stressed about this wondering what I should do...
...which reminded me of a dream I had a few weeks ago. I discovered that a friend I haven't seen in a long time was a heroin addict. I remember thinking it's not that suprising that she's a heroin addict but it's still horrific of course and I was trying to figure out the best way to help her. When I woke up I told Jonah about it and was really getting into various ways of addressing the situation and he said, "you know, _____ isn't a heroin addict." And I was like, "oh right."
Yet I continued to imagine how I would break the news. I'd handwrite a letter with a quill pen beginning with the line, "all my dreams come true" and then "I dreamed your husband is having a child with another woman" or "I dreamed you love heroin."
But then I think better of it of course as I'm reminded that although they seem as real as my waking life my dreams are just dreams. I just hope that one day I won't slip up and say,"hope you kicked that cheating bastard to the curb!" or "are you on methodone yet?"
* Names have been withheld to protect the poor, innocent, unsuspecting souls who have their reputations tarnished by my subconscious.